Great Expectations

Its official! our team manager just talked me down regarding my resignation, but there's nothing that they can do, my decision is final so she accepted and signed my resignation letter. it will be effective by December 19. After 1 yr and 6 months of working with expedia, i cant help not to feel bad about this resignation thing! i mean, yes i complain a lot that im tired and i hate taking calls, its not an easy job! its not easy to worry and resolve the problems of your customers when you cant even face your own problems! that's why i am resigning because im tired of confronting the problems of other people, that's what customer service reps do, but thanks to this job because it has greatly enhanced my problem-solving skills.... always looking for options or alternatives even when its a dead-end situation! whew *sigh*

But then again, it still crushes my heart to leave expedia and PS for good, it has been my life for 1 yr and 6 months, and to say goodbye to the company who's paying your rent for 1 yr and 6 months is a bit difficult...joke! no, of course that's not the reason why it hurts me so bad to leave this job. its the freakin' people, its the familiarity, its the comfort, its the job itself that im so used to and im so good at ... it has been my comfort zone. Again im taking the risk of moving out from my comfort zone and i hate doing this, im afraid of change! i have always been afraid of taking risk, i mean who's not? im just saying! im scared but im not a coward... ive done this before and im doing this again and its never easy! taking risks, making big decisions, not knowing where to go next, worrying whether you'll fail or you'll succeed, who says its easy? but i know its all up to me, i make my own destiny and i make my own future.

im going home by the way, ill be home for christmas and im so excited, i cant wait! its one of the reasons too why i did this, i want to spend the holidays at home. Another christmas and new year here in cebu all alone will drive me insane! But il be back here in cebu after the christmas break, the semester is not yet over, it might be the end of my call center career but i still have 3 years and 3 months after the christmas break to finish my law school. And hopefully, il have a new job by january when i come back here in cebu, hopefully, im crossing my fingers, monday nov 26 will be my job interview for that new job that im talking about. =) i need a job for my tuition, my rent, my bills and my basic needs. i did not quit my job with PS to rest and depend for my mom to breathe for me. we cant afford it, they have enough problems at home and i dont want to be an additional burden because i know my mom cant afford it. one thing is for sure though, i cant just give up yet, im never giving up! no matter what it takes.... Im in this. Im in this for the long haul. And Im in this to finish the race, so if that means 3, 4 or 5 more years of misery, im willing to sacrifice!