then comes highschool when all that matters to you are your friends and your shared secrets. and of course college, you get serious about your studies and start to think about your future. then comes your 20-something adult life , when there's too much responsibility attached. when the harsh reality hits you, that you cant live in your fairyland, that this world isnt your dreamworld! this is the stage when you need to face your nightmares and worse , live your nightmares! its a stage when you cant have a scoop of ice cream because there's too much calories and fat in it!
they say that being an adult is way much better, because you dont have to be bullied by other children. you dont have to be judged by your appearance, rather you are judged by your character. you understand the world better, there will be a growing awareness and consciousness on what's going on around you and in result you will know how to react on what life may hand you.
but as for me, id rather remain in fantasyland, id rather believe that fairytales do come true, id rather be a little girl... than grow up and realize that im living in a harsh world, and that my fantasyland doesnt really exist. id rather live in my dreams than wake up one day and find out that the people i trust, betrayed me. id rather believe in the 'happily ever after' ending of two people who love each other than watch couples fight over senseless things and break up over unreasonable issues. id rather believe that true love exist, that true friendship lasts and that trust, hope and faith will always be your best armors in life.... than face the real world and realize that it isnt enough, that sometimes the evil in humanity may eat you and may shake your beliefs to the core, that what you used to believe may no longer be true. i still want to believe in the goodness of humanity, i want to hold on to my beliefs but reality sometimes hits me way too hard and way below the belt that it makes me doubt....
