ok, so im still breathing. ive been with my new job for almost three months now, almost done with the training part (hopefully!). im still in the call center industry, but a totally different company and a totally different account. im done with my 1st year in law school too, hopefully without no failing grades... still waiting for the final verdict. i dont get to rest though, because we have summer classes to lighten up our loads during regular sem, our dean decided to offer summer classes. good enough!
our class officially ended just last saturday. i have to admit that its never been easy, working while studying. going home at 10PM after class and waking up at 4am because of my 5am-2.30pm sched at work, cant even doze off for a couple of hours after work because i have to be at the library studying and reading the assigned cases before my class starts at 6pm. i even came to a point when i ask 'why the heck am i doing this to myself?' there's an easier way to commit suicide! why suffer like this?! it even came to a point when i just want to drop all my subjects and give up right then and there, because i was oh so fed up already! the pressure of my new job because im still in training plus the pressure in school i was really about to give up. but then again, its not me who makes impulsive decisions without thinking hundreds of times because i dont want to have regrets at the end of the day.ive trully been unbelievably buzy, i have bags under my eyes, i cant even do laundry anymore, and in the evenings when i come home stressed out, i am so irrationally angry at everything and everyone. but despite all those things, here i am, still breathing, i never lost weight because starving myself is the last thing i would want to do when im so buzy (that's why no matter how pressured i am, i never lose weight, which i hate by the way!!) and well, in the end i can sigh, breathe and proudly say that it was time well-spent! *whew*
