Thursday, May 17, 2007



mGa kAloKohaN!!!

eversince i was a kid, i have always loved school so much.. i would even cry every morning because my mom used to threaten me that if i dont drink my milk i cant go to school. and i would never even go on absent even if im sick, that's how i love school. i dont know why, its not because im such a bright kid, im not the top one of my class, im just an ordinary average student who studies her lessons in order to pass! (yayks! talagang nag stustudy noh!) perhaps its because my only playmates are in school given that i have no siblings or perhaps i really love learning (talaga lng huh?) yeah! the things that i learn from school really amaze me. school has taught me a lot, not just about academics, but about life.

i was sitting at a bakeshop earlier this afternoon taking my siesta, i noticed a very loud group of highschool students passed by. my first reaction was really annoyed because they talk very loud, they laugh very loud and i was thinking to myself ' who do they think they are!' and then i suddenly remember that i used to be like them when i was in highschool. whenever im with my friends, sobrang lalakas naming tumawa, ang iingay namin sa jeep tapos papatol pa sa teacher! ang kakapal talaga ng mukha! hahahahaha!!! and guess what's our favorite hobby when we're in highschool???!!! we love to declare our own holidays or we love to assume that our teacher will be absent even if she's not! we usually do this in our afternoon classes... everyone is of course present in the morning and after we take our lunch breaks, the conversation will then start:


wahahahaha!!!! funny faces!!!! di pa uso ang digi cam ni2 kaya ang labo!




someone will suddenly suggest ( i guess sir **** wont be around this afternoon)
someone would then second the motion (yeah, didn't he mention last week that he will be out of town?),
and then comes the argument (i think we should wait)
somebody would answer back (it will just waist our time! besides we can just tell him that we thought he's absent that's why we went home)
someone would then ask (what about our next subjects?)
and then one will answer (we can tell our teachers that we didnt have class on most of our other subjects that's why we decided to go home and have a group study)
and then someone with good heart will suggest (lets clean the room first and put the chairs on top of the table so at least our adviser wont be mad at us)

everybody will then agree and go our separate ways depending on which group you belong... in our group we would usually go to our friend's house and have a movie marathon and eat soooo mmuuuccchhh foood!!! in short nag ka-cutting classes kami nung highschool ! pero ok nman kasi one for all, all for one kami noon so kami lahat napapagalitan! wla din namang nag di-dare umuwi kung may magpapa-iwan. kaya dapat kami talaga lahat uuwi! it was fun! highschool was really fun! i missed my highschool days! i can still remember the difficult times when we were threatened that we cant graduate because we havent submitted our research paper! and lucky me because i graduated without passing my research paper! and well, my grades are not so bad! i just got so lucky because mam biboso and me are friends! hahahaha!!! (kidding!) naaahhh, all of us actually passed! it was really crazy, because we keep on changing our study plus we cant conduct that damn experiment properly so we dont have any results! but anyways its all over! and fortunately i am still in touch with my highschool friends, we still see each other everytime i had the chance to go home. we were still really good friends. the last time i went home back in december, elaine, rhoda and me decided to have a dinner one time at cookie factory, we ate a lot! we ordered a lot! so we ended up asking the waiter to wrap the remaining food because we can no longer breathe! hahaha!!! the following day, gina and me decided to meet, we had a very very long talk about nonsense things! we just sat the whole day, sip our coffees, throwing the magazines to each other and walk out without paying our bill! hahaha!!! but its not intentional! nkalimutan lng tlaga namin sa sobrang tagal na naming nka-upo dun, tlagang sa tricycle ko na na remember! kukuha na sana ako ng pamasahe sa wallet ko tpos nagulat na lng ako bat buo pa yung pera ko, bat hindi na baryahan?! well, hindi rin nman kmi siningil ng waiter! di nga kmi sinita nung palabas na kami! anyways, thanks to coffee dream for letting us spend our whole day at their store and have a free coffee! hahahaha!!! during my last day in gensan gina and me decided to meet again and have a dinner at orange cafe (we paid our bill this time!), elaine followed later that evening after her work. it was fun! (ulitin natin pag uwi ko) i wish i can hang out with all of you next time. il probably go home again this september, hopefully! i was suppose to go home last month, i had so much time last month but so little money! hehehehe!!! so, that's my highschool life and God knows how much i miss my highschool friends!


ayan mas clear na! fresh grads!!!! certified political scientists na!!!


if highschool is fun, college is soooo muuuuchhhh funnnnn!!! i had the time of my life in college! the things i learned were really really amazing! i am so in llluuuuvvvv with my course, i took my studies really seriously (gawsh can u believe that? this is actually the first time il admit that i was really serious with my studies when i was in college! do i look like im serious when i was in college?) i was hell serious! im obssessed with studying Political Science! not in the sense that i really love to study everynight, read thousands of pages and try to analyze and understand them... no! never! i would always even complain about it! i would always curse to death about the books that i still have to read and study! there are time that i would even cry because i can no longer stand the pressure! those times when have to reach the deadline of our 3 research papers of our most dreaded subjects not to mention the up comming finals (tons of books to be read), the daily article review, and the oral defense for our thesis! i was so used to sleepless nights when i was in college but those were the times that i experienced to be wide awake 1 week straight! those were the times when my head was literally floating while taking the final exam in one of our subjects! so my point is, kapoy! as in super kapoy gyud mag study and mag eskwela but what i love about my course are the things and the facts that i learn, it makes me appreciate the world! and makes me think that this world has so much to offer! it makes me dream BIG and it makes me believe that i can make a difference! that's why im obssessed with my course because its simply amazing! it made me a better person! serioulsly! laugh all you can but im really serious! but college wont be that sssssssssooooooooo muuuuuucccchhhh fuuuunnnn without my dearest PolSci comrades!!!! they kept me sane during those difficult times! its just unbelievable that everyone is actually there ready to help each other during the toughest years in our college life! from the requirements to the exams and even to their love life problems! hahahaha!!!! yeah?! who can ever forget the most memorable Boulevard of Broken Dreams!!!! im talking about Caltex! (as in gasoline station) where we'd spent most of the nights sharing and talking about frustrations and problems... those were the break-up season for those who have boyfriends and girlfriends in our class! there was this one time when suddenly everyone seemed to break-up with their relationship. i dont know what's up with them that it happened to almost everyone that time who were in a relationship! that's why we called it boulevard of broken dreams... we would sit there all gathered in one table, talking, laughing, drinking! and it eventually became a habit and we formed the club 'the political drinkers' we would spend the night drinking from dusk till dawn! i can still remember one time that we started this drinking session at 3pm and i ended throwing up at 2am (that was the first time i threw up because of being drunk), i was so so drunk! but i can still walk of course! but just for the record too, i have never been absent because of hangover! kahit sobrang sakit ng katawan ko i would still go to school the next day! and we have never compromised our studies for fun! we know how to set our limitations! and yes we spend overnights drinking, but we also spend overnights studying! i really missed those times! i hope one day all of us will be gathered again in one table like we used to!

i miss everyone!!!!

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Manggang Hilaw!

finally! this blog site is working again... nothing's really up, i just missed spending my day blogging and writing sweet nothings. its the freakin' tuesday, that means its my rest day tomorrow. im so sick of myself, i finally started to exercise last week for two consecutive days but i got too lazy again and gave up immediately and ate tons and tons of carbo and calories! hmp! that's what they call dont even dare to dream if you dont have the discipline to make it happen! well? what can i say? i dont care! il keep on dreaming and il keep on trying to make it happen even if it takes a lifetime! yeah i know im exagerating!

anyway, i noticed so many things around me today. i bought green mangoes outside the robinsons mall earlier and was so disappointed! its not the kind of mangoes im hoping for. i remember when i was a kid, i was so fond of eating green mangoes, i used to buy them outside the gate of our school. noon libre pa nga lng ang hipon but id always prefer yung maanghang na suka at asin kesa sa hipon. ngayon, binibili na yung hipon, tag 3 pesos. wla ng libre sa panahon ngayon. do you know why im sharing this? wala lng naisip ko lng na baka darating ang araw na pag bibili ako na manggang hilaw, pati asin may bayad na rin. wla lng, nakakalungkot lng isipin na sa halip na aasenso yung kalagayan natin, eh lalo pa tayong pahirap ng pahirap. i noticed rin na parami ng parami yung mga street children buti sana kung tulad tayo sa US na at least may supporta ang gobyerno for homeless people, meron silang place for homeless people where these people can spend the night and they actually get free food, they can also shower but they have to leave and bring their things with them the following day and these people really try their best to look for a job so that they can support their selves. eh dito sa Pinas, those kids are sleeping on the strees, begging for alms plus they dont get proper nourishment and proper hygiene. sometimes, it makes me wonder how can they live like that, there's no future for them and there's no future for this country. it crushes my heart everytime i think about these things. not that i am being so noble or what but i love this country, i am so proud of this beautiful country. nothing compares to the beauty and culture of our country. after 1 year of working with americans in one of the biggest online travel agency in US, i would say that there are so many places abroad that surely amaze us filipinos. going to these places and have a vacation would surely be great but staying there for good would be horrible! the culture, the people, the norms, the lifestyle, i dont know if i can endure those! its just so different! you'll never experience the warmth, the respect, the hospitality, the friendliness, the homey and cozy treatment. i mean i havent been abroad but ive been dealing with foreigners every second of my working life. kaya kahit ano pang sabihin nila about sa bansa na 2, di ko talaga ipagpapalit ang PINAS! di rin nman tayo pahuhuli ah, kung pagandahan lng ng bansa ang pag uusapan! we have so many tourist spots in this country and we have a very rich wild life, which can be a great source for raw materials. we are a very rich nation if only those natural resources were utilize wisely!

yeah! i know! here i go again with my endless frustrations about this country, about this life, about everything! i really hope someday we will rise again! i hope we still have enough time to correct our mistakes and move on to make a change! im not campaigning for you to vote someone because the senatorial election is comming up... i dont believe in the capability of our rotten government! whoever sits there with the purest intentions will still be eaten up by our dirty and corrupt political system! we need to discipline our own selves if we want real change! its a very difficult struggle but we have to carry on because we have to win the battle against our own selves!

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

hang over

its been so long since i last woke up with this kind of feeling, when you feel so heavy, when your head is floating, when you feel that pain all over your body, when you feel like you cant stand up... and when you open your eyes you realize that the smile is still all over your face! that's what i call hang over! i suddenly missed my college days! when i finally got into my room still singing and dancing at 3am this morning, a little tipsy but not drunk... i just felt so happy and overwhelmed because it has been a long long time since my body have taken so much alcohol and it just feels good to feel this kind of feeling. i took a bath and set my alarm at 9am coz i have to attend the 9.30 mass at redemptorist today coz its sunday. the moment i opened my eyes i realized that im still smiling and still feelin' good about last night! i just cant stop smiling! and the moment i felt the pain and the weight of my body that its almost impossible for me to stand up i actually thought that this feeling is so familiar, i am so used to this kind of feeling when i was in college. i laughed at myself because i feel this way almost everyday during my college life and it actually felt good to feel this way again! (am i making any sense?) in short, i just missed being drunk! coz i rarely drink these days, chosen few people lang and mka pa inom sa ako and last night i had a really really good beer drinking and videoke session with the right people! =)