Manggang Hilaw!

finally! this blog site is working again... nothing's really up, i just missed spending my day blogging and writing sweet nothings. its the freakin' tuesday, that means its my rest day tomorrow. im so sick of myself, i finally started to exercise last week for two consecutive days but i got too lazy again and gave up immediately and ate tons and tons of carbo and calories! hmp! that's what they call dont even dare to dream if you dont have the discipline to make it happen! well? what can i say? i dont care! il keep on dreaming and il keep on trying to make it happen even if it takes a lifetime! yeah i know im exagerating!

anyway, i noticed so many things around me today. i bought green mangoes outside the robinsons mall earlier and was so disappointed! its not the kind of mangoes im hoping for. i remember when i was a kid, i was so fond of eating green mangoes, i used to buy them outside the gate of our school. noon libre pa nga lng ang hipon but id always prefer yung maanghang na suka at asin kesa sa hipon. ngayon, binibili na yung hipon, tag 3 pesos. wla ng libre sa panahon ngayon. do you know why im sharing this? wala lng naisip ko lng na baka darating ang araw na pag bibili ako na manggang hilaw, pati asin may bayad na rin. wla lng, nakakalungkot lng isipin na sa halip na aasenso yung kalagayan natin, eh lalo pa tayong pahirap ng pahirap. i noticed rin na parami ng parami yung mga street children buti sana kung tulad tayo sa US na at least may supporta ang gobyerno for homeless people, meron silang place for homeless people where these people can spend the night and they actually get free food, they can also shower but they have to leave and bring their things with them the following day and these people really try their best to look for a job so that they can support their selves. eh dito sa Pinas, those kids are sleeping on the strees, begging for alms plus they dont get proper nourishment and proper hygiene. sometimes, it makes me wonder how can they live like that, there's no future for them and there's no future for this country. it crushes my heart everytime i think about these things. not that i am being so noble or what but i love this country, i am so proud of this beautiful country. nothing compares to the beauty and culture of our country. after 1 year of working with americans in one of the biggest online travel agency in US, i would say that there are so many places abroad that surely amaze us filipinos. going to these places and have a vacation would surely be great but staying there for good would be horrible! the culture, the people, the norms, the lifestyle, i dont know if i can endure those! its just so different! you'll never experience the warmth, the respect, the hospitality, the friendliness, the homey and cozy treatment. i mean i havent been abroad but ive been dealing with foreigners every second of my working life. kaya kahit ano pang sabihin nila about sa bansa na 2, di ko talaga ipagpapalit ang PINAS! di rin nman tayo pahuhuli ah, kung pagandahan lng ng bansa ang pag uusapan! we have so many tourist spots in this country and we have a very rich wild life, which can be a great source for raw materials. we are a very rich nation if only those natural resources were utilize wisely!

yeah! i know! here i go again with my endless frustrations about this country, about this life, about everything! i really hope someday we will rise again! i hope we still have enough time to correct our mistakes and move on to make a change! im not campaigning for you to vote someone because the senatorial election is comming up... i dont believe in the capability of our rotten government! whoever sits there with the purest intentions will still be eaten up by our dirty and corrupt political system! we need to discipline our own selves if we want real change! its a very difficult struggle but we have to carry on because we have to win the battle against our own selves!