back to school

i know im making my life miserable once again! my life is completely normal now... now that my schedule is so perfect 7am-4pm, a lot of call center agents would envy my so normal life and my 8 hours sleep every night! but guess what i did to myself? i eventually got tired of boring, unchallenged, relaxed, worry-free kind of life! i enrolled my self to law school! yep! you heard me right! im officially enrolled and our classes will start on june 13! crazy me, not to mention that im completely on my own when comes to paying my so expensive tuition! but anyway, i want to be challenged! i want to be pressured! i want to be buzy! so here i am giving myself a pain in my own ass!

duh! actually that's really not how i feel! i know my life will be miserable but right now? i am just so excited to be a student again. im excited to read hundreds of pages and to be pressured! im excited to experience sleepless nights once more, im excited to go to school and learn things again! really excited! and a bit worried financially too... hehe! but whatever it takes, i really feel that this is something so doable with enough determination and hard work! why not? theres no reason for me not to achieve my dreams given the right attitude! im crossing my fingers, and this blog entry will serve as an inspiration and witness to my own determination before i start this crazy life! i just hope i wont give up in the middle of the crossroads! its scary but i believe He will never leave me coz He has always been there for me giving me more that what ive asked for, and im sure He would never leave me specially now that ive made this far! im really crossing my fingers coz i know myself so well! there were times when i was in college that i literally asked death to come and get me than live in this world with my crazy, miserable, so pressured life and im scared that i might reach that point again! i wish not! but i never attempted suicide, just for the record! im not that crazy yet!